Denial..It works for everyone...

We only see what we want to see...and beleive what we want to believe..and it works...We lie to oursevelvs so much that after a while ,the lies start to seem like the truth...We deny so much that we cant recognise the truth right in front of our faces...Most of the time, we know what the reality is..we just coose to ignore it....denials works for us most of the time....

Sometimes reality has a way of sneaking up and biting us in the ass, and when the dam bursts, all you can do is swim..The world of pretend is a cage , we can only pretend to lie to ourselves for so long ..we are tired, we are scared, denying it doesnt change the truth...Sooner or later, we have to put aside our denial and face the world, head on, guns blazing...
so how do u keep from drowning when the dam breaks ?

My point is whoever said"what you dont know cant hurt you was a complete and total moron" cause for most people i know ; not knowing is the worst feeling in the world..As grown ups we have to know..we have to know what it takes ...to take care of the people dependent on us ..to take care of each other..

Eventually we have to even figure out how to take care of ourselves..But...As human beings ; sometimes its better to stay in the dark ...because in the dark there may be fear ; but there is also hope......

P.S. Instead of the song of the day, i choose today to tell everyone somethhing i took a long time to learn " Never, i mean never ; cheat on the peson whom you love ...believe me you dont know what you are missing ". If this does not make sense to you right now...then u are doing ok....

Ten Feet Tall and Bulletproof

We are all in reality , control freaks..we have this thing that we are all demi gods or maybe some times more than that...all this happens when we are in this stage ,thiis limelight,once we are out of this podium..the demi god disaapers..the felling of oneself as 10 feet tall and bulletproof dissapears painfully yet relievingly to be ourselves again...

No one likes to lose control ..but as human beings there is nothing worse...It is a sign of weakness of not being up to the task...and still there are times when it just gets away from you...when the world stops spinning and you realize that demi god idea is not going to save you....

No matter how hard u fight it, u fall ..and its scary as hell ..except there is an upsite to free falling..its chance you give your friends and loved ones to catch you...

With a lot of hopes satiatied fianlly, but walking ahead to a new day filled with this new "butterfly in the tummy " feeling, with the conviction of a better tomorrow and of a brighter future i close this post till i return ....

P.S. I know that no one actually is interested in my song of the day lol..., but this; today ; is a part of the repentence of not keeping up a promise that this song for today is dedicated to ...for the people who matter ...song for the day is

Life is Beautiful by Vega4

Change..Are we ready for it ?

We all have the similar feeling when we meet up with someone who we thought had lost contact with ,or we have not met for like a few decades...recently i had this experiece when i met with a friend of mine and after a certain point of time , i realized during the course of the conversation that I did not know this person in front of me , who i was elated to see more than half a decade. The person had changed, change had overcome him to such an extent that i no longer identified with him, he was no longer that person who i called my friend...

I came back home and i was thinking to myself, if i had changed over the period of time.. and to tell the truth coudn't figure out, other than being more fatter and and the increase in the thickness of my glasses , i coudnt figure out any noticable change in me in terms of personality.

I asked a few people and there were some fo my freinds who told me that they liked me more even now because i was still the same old chap they met in college and i am still the same person now too..Tellling the truth again, i was quite delighted to know that other people did not feel the same disjoint feeling as i had expereinced..

But then this thought struck me as to ; have i kept myself from changing, from evloving, from developing into someone else that i would have been if i had no resisted change ?..The thought was disturbing..one side of me told me that i was doing good by keeping away change and its always better to be oneself, whereas my otherside of my mind told me otherwise..

I figured out later that the common philospical talk about change which goes like "Change is inevitable" is not true to all its extents..Change is definitly evitable..It is something that we chose to embrace or disregards...sometimes we change for the better sometimes the change is disastorous...sometimes even the disaster serves as a change..

When i say embrace change..it is much easier to type it here than to actually do it..because changes are sometimes forced..most of the times changes are decisions that we take in life, and to welcome the difference a higher mindset is required..And higher mindset is not something that can be bought from a shop ..it is something that we cultivate, that we grow,that we learn through expereicnes...

So someimtes even the best of us, make rash decsiions, bad decision, decisions we know we are going to regret the moment its over...sometimes we do something that we know will go wrong, but we do it anyway.

But at the end of the day even making those choices, taking that decision immaterial of the result turning good or not, turning the odds against us or not , requires a lot of courage, a lot of will power, a burning passion to embrace and make change to ourselves and to the people around us.....

The outcome of making or not making that choice, is what makes us or breaks us...

A nice day with lot of things learned , massive understandings and realizing that; in the end, its

all that we do in this short time we have here , that matters....i close this post for today....

If people reading this have not closed this blog and gone yet, the song for today ..

FALL FOR NOTHING BY MINDY SMITH

An ignored truth from dawn to dusk

At the end of the day , when it comes down to it , all you really want is to be close to somebody..

So this thing where we all keep our distance , and pretend not to care about each other ; it's usually a lot of bull...

So we pick and choose who we are really close to..

And once we have choosen those people, we tend to stick close by...

No matter how much we hurt them , the people who are still with you at the end of the day ; those are the ones worth keeping....

And sure sometimes close ; can be too close.

But sometimes that invasion of personal space ; it can be exactly what we need...

A dull sunday, in hopes and aspirations of a better , brighter tomorrow..i close this post for today...

The song for today...Where We Gonna Go From Here By Mat Kearney

Let the angels commit....

There are times even the best of us , have trouble with commitment...
and we might be surprised by the commitment we are willing to let slip out of our grasp...

Commitments are complicated... we may surprise ourselves by the commitments we are willing to make...

True commitment takes effort and sacrifice..... which is why sometimes we have to learn the hard way ; to choose our commitments very carefully.....


A post after a long time,a time which had its share of remorse,a time of happiness, a time...a time which i wish i never had lost ; but will never come back...

The song for today ....Notice by Gomez

Good night folks..have a nice day...